Tuesday, April 12, 2011

The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of...

Don't ask me the reason for what I'm writing today,
I may not be able to answer it,
I have come far away.

Emotions are swirling,
Thoughts are varying,
It's difficult to pen them down,
Let my fears get drown,
Never did I want to feel like this!
Where is the Bliss?

Don't ask me the reason for what I'm writing today,
I may not be able to answer it,
I have lost something! 



Solitude : My Solace,
Taught me,
Life is not about living like an Ace,
Seek answers yourself,
Gracefully you have to face,
But
It's Scorching My Soul,
Pain taking its toll,
No eyes to see it,
Coz There is no wound to be seen,
It's deep within!

Staring at My Reflection,
Who are you?
The only question!
This can't be me,
No, It can never be!
I have lost 'Being Me'

Am I living for someone else?
Do I Smile just for a sake?

Let me be "Me",
Is all I wanted to be!
I am feeling so lonely today,
I have come far away!

Yearning,
To be heard,
To be seen,
To be felt!

Look in my eyes,
You will see the distant hurt,
Unveil the Pain behind My Smile,
Hold me close for a while!

Solitude: Once My Solace,
The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of!







37 comments on "The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of..."
  1. It is so touching and beautiful, especially when you say hold me for a while...

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  2. Hey, Hi
    hmmm, touching lines..they accpet teh pain yet want to be freed, even if for once..let feel that bliss, solace in solitude...

    You penned it beautifully...
    :)

    Regards,
    The Silhouette...

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  3. Wow!.....beautifully penned..:'(
    I feel like I'm reading my feelings...

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  4. Have been feeling it for the past one week!!:(


    Anyways,it's nicely penned!!!

    P.S : like the new layout of your blog:)

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  5. In my solitude you haunt me
    With reveries of days gone by
    In my solitude you taunt me
    With memories that never die....

    read this lines of a beautiful song. Solitude is a blessing in disguise, it gives time to self-introspect, time to love self, live selflessly.. it's no pain its a gift of time

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  6. wow..just stuck the cord and made it sing in melancholy! they say love is never afraid nor does it attempts to change but then life is not a straight path of blacks n white and things differ...and then the only solace is within our own self. beautiful thought poonam di :)

    sarah

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  7. beautiful! dont have better words to express. your poetry jsutifies those times when it becomes difficult to emote,yet you want to speak and write volumes. lovely!

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  8. Magnificently Wrote .....So profound yet simply expressed ... I just loved this .....
    Once my solace ... Now Scared of..
    Beautiful


    Ritz..

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  9. Aww..it is full of pain and wanting..It's good to be alone sometimes..may be the me understands the need for you and comes back very soon :)

    The image makes it all the more soulful :)

    tc
    keep smiling always!!

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  10. awww........if that's how u feel, hope u feel all better very soon. tc. *hugs*
    and otherwise, wonderful poetry.

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  11. Now I know why you thanked me, hope you got the message!

    Try living, as you want. Trust me life is a lot more beautiful and so are you! :)

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  12. Solitude shouldn't be anyone's solace.. That person would did alive.
    Hold me for while before i wither away.. The feel is beautiful di.. Just so enchanting and piercing.
    I am searching for the lost 'me'.. Touching one.

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  13. The pain of the past, in moments of solitude often do revisit us and we just wish they could pass without hurting. But seldom do we succeed in letting go, and rarely in avoiding the angst and pain.
    I won't ask you why you wrote today, because, sometimes, silence is the better way to communicate.

    Regards,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  14. Just dunno what to write...your words express so much, pain and solitude and somewhere I found hope too...

    I'm just falling short of words...at the moment.

    Take Care.

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  15. @Alka...Thanks! Yes, I want someone to! :)

    @Eon...The pain I have lived with, The pain I will not forget, but I will never run away from it, to get the freedom! Yes, It does hurt, but won't call it a suffering...coz It has taught me about LIFE...about living life!
    Thanks :)

    @Valli...Oh! I never wanted anyone to feel sad...Smile please :)
    Thanks!

    @Blood Is Red...Hey! You too Cheer up girl, whenever I think about your post I read first, I always smile...Keep Smiling :)
    & Thank you!

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  16. @Beyond...Thank you so much for the words I have been searching for!

    Solitude has always been my solace, you are right by saying, its a blessing in disguise...It has taught me to learn more about myself, self introspect and love. But as I said, sometimes I do want myself to be heard by the one who understands me, when I just don't want this solitude.

    I will remember, Its no pain, its gift of time for sure! :)


    @Sarah...'the only solace is within our own self', nicely said!
    Sing the happy song alongwith too :)

    P.S.I loved that you called me di, Thanks :)

    @Rajesh...Thanks! :)

    @4 those who care...Thanks, coz only these few words I have :)

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  17. @Ritz...Thanks! for understanding the profoundness even though there are few words that I could express :)

    @Alcina...I love to be alone, when I meet the 'Me'
    Thanks!
    You too Keep Smiling :)

    @m7...Thank you for the warm hugs :)

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  18. @Sourav...Yep! I did, and trying to!
    Life is indeed beautiful :)
    Thank you so much for your words always light up the path for the beautiful journey :)

    @Deepika...Solitude helps me,so I love it and do find solace!
    But yes sometimes it doesn't, as I said in this post.

    Thanks to you too for calling me di :)

    @Anshul..Letting go is difficult, and more is to avoid the angst,pain
    Thanks a lot for saying "silence is the better way to communicate" :) It is!

    @Fatima...Its ok dear :) You are right, Hope! The one I will never loose!

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  19. I loved the way you penned it...it's so personal and heartfelt

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  20. Since you're elder.. Felt like calling you di.. :)

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  21. YEARNING... INDEED ... THE NEED TO GET UNDERSTOOD IS THE GREATEST NEED..PARTICULARLY FOR THOSE WHO LIKE TO THINK ANEW, AFRESH... FOR VERY DIFFICULT FOR OTHERS AROUND TO ACCEPT.. BECUASE ACCEPTANCE THERE MEANS ACCEPTANCE OF YOUR BEING ON A DIFFERENT PLANE... HOW CAN THAT BE.. AND THEN..THIS PAGE HERE ..THIS SPACE HERE..HELP YOU MEET UNKNOWN SPIRITS, STRANGERS ..PERHAPS WHOSE HEARTS BEAT THE SAME BEATS.. AND YOU FIND GETTING UNDERSTOOD..YOU FIND PEOPLE
    ACKNOWLEDING YOUR PRESENCE..WHAT A BOON..A REAL BLESSING... NEED GETS FULFILLED AND THEN A STAGE COMES WHEN IT DOESN'T EXIST BECAUSE IT DOESN'T MATTER..BUT THEN TO ARRIVE THERE ..SO DIFFICULT..
    AND PAIN IS ESSENTIAL ELSE ONE WILL NEVER KNOW HAPPINESS..AND TRUST ME ITS PAIN THAT BRINGS US ALL TOGETHER..BECAUSE WE START WRITING TO SPILL PAIN.. AND BECOME FREE..WELL DON'T KNOW WHAT MOTIVATED ME TO PUT SO MANY WORDS HERE.. BUT THEN THE YEARNIGN YOU WROTE ABOUT PERHAPS TRIGGERED BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.. GOD BLESS!!!!!

    CHEERS! RAMESH

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  22. There are some things which we crave for and then there are some things that we own.Most of the times we are scared of losing the latter.It is not LOVE that we fear,it is the the fear of losing,hurting,cheating,disappointing someone whom we love.Love is always wonderful:)

    As well always like your lines touch my heart Poo,this one did too:)

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  23. that is so beautifully delicate

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  24. A person who is beautiful inside can appreciate the beauty outside and around! Touch your heart deep, and you'd be healed too :)

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  25. U Made the word "solitude" more beautiful vth ur poem :) Well xpressed!

    Yea.. v ppl sum times come across solitude... it is nothing but teaching a lesson.. for our life.. vch is needed.. :) Hope u get more stronger n conscious abt such situations in ur future!

    Take care. :) and u hav a great blog!
    Cheers ^_^

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  26. @Swati...Thanks! Hmm..It is! :)

    @Deepika...Sweet of you :) but am not that elderly ;)

    @Mr.Ramesh Sood...Your many words have helped a lot. THANK YOU SO MUCH!

    Rightly said, this is THE space where I can pour all of my emotions...and it really feels nice that all these unknown spirits, strangers like you understands me, means a lot!

    Thanks once again :)

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  27. @R...Its indeed the fear of losing and not Love!
    Thanks a lot :)

    @magiceye...delicate, True! Thanks :)

    @Sourav
    You kind words have made me loss for words...
    Thanks again and being along-with always! :)

    @...Madhumati...Sweet name!
    Thanks and Welcome :)

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  28. Let the pain stay,
    Let it keep you awake.
    Because it rewinds,
    Because it reminds.

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  29. I am really sorry to be here so late.... I don't know what has transpired and I won't ask... but if you think it can't be you then
    IT IS NOT YOU.... don't smile till the time it is for your own sake... you can never loose being You... you can only forget at times... or diverted for some time... but soon you'll remember.. You.... the "You " that was before you loved the one... nothing has changed... the very fact that you can differentiate implies that the real you is there as the standard... u r just not able to see it... just wash your eyes of the hurt... look beyond the pain... you'll see the full moon (Poonam)shining bright... :) :)

    Take care... will wait for the smiling, crusader against pain, hurt, melancholy, bitterness; fighting for the baby girl, the infant, for every thing that is the synonym of life

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  30. And hey you overwhelmed me with the love you RM :)
    That was a real surprise that made my day.

    God bless you gal :)

    Keep smiling

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  31. lol.. who called elder alike 40-50 :P
    2 years elder is elder too sweetie pie :)

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  32. @Sayak...the pain hurts, reminds, and will always stay but I need to soothe it too, and I have known its only me who can! :)

    @RM...Its absolutely fine dear, and you always have the most soothing words that makes me Smile :)

    and in fact You have overwhelmed me by saying those most lovely words ever said to me and they are gonna be close to me forever...

    You too Keep Smiling :)

    @Deepika... ;) Thanks!

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